Keep Me A Secret: Chapter 10

Previously: Chapter 9 [A]

A Dev writes: Mea culpa. Sez/Clom has had this one ready for quite a while and I haven’t had time to beta and post it for y’all. It’s all my fault.

Anyway, onwards and upwards.

Rating: X. Hot sex warning. NSFW.

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Chapter 10

Her lips touch mine and the instant they do, I’m on fire. They’re soft and taste faintly sweet and they’re just the right level of moist without being wet.

It’s heaven.

Her mouth shifts slightly, turning so we’re pushed more together, and our kiss deepens. I can’t help it; my lips part and one of my hands finds her side, near her hip. Then, as promised, she does that thing with her tongue and my lip, a gentle brushing of the tip of her tongue to the centre tip of my lip. It flutters and then tastes and then slides gently into my mouth, finding my own tongue, then it retreats.

My body explodes with want and need.

When her mouth leaves mine, my eyes flutter open. I hadn’t even noticed that they were closed. She’s still hovering over me, leaning on an elbow and so very, very close. She’s looking right into my eyes, and I can’t help the little almost strangled noise that escapes my lips.

It sounds something like ‘Ungh.’

“Like that,” she whispers, after the silence has become so intense that I think it might solidify.

“Uh-huh,” I reply weakly, aware that my hand is still gripping her side.

Her eyes drop from mine to my lips and, right then, I know she wants to kiss me again. I don’t know how this is happening or where the hell this is coming from but, goddammit, if she kisses me again, I might just melt into a puddle.

And then her head drops back down and her lips are very gently brushing mine. I don’t dare to kiss her back in case it makes her realise what she’s doing and she stops. Her head turns gently and she deepens the kiss. I can’t help it: I lose myself in her. Our lips part and I’m in heaven. Her body is pressing me down into the bed and, though she’s still holding herself up on her elbows, I can feel her weight against me. My hands find her back and, without thinking, I lift her top up, sliding my fingers to the soft sleek skin below. I can feel the slightly raised bump of her lower back tattoo.

Her tongue slides against mine, soft but insistent. This is no amateur kiss. This is someone who knows how to tantalise and tease. She’s making my body want to explode. I never thought that kissing Ashley Davies would be this good, and I’d had some pretty high expectations.

One of my hands slips up to her hair and I angle my head so I can kiss her better. It’s no longer a one-way exchange: we are making out like there’s no tomorrow. She lets a little more of her weight fall on me, and I can feel her body pushing against mine.

Jesus Christ!

When we finally break for air, I hear a moan and realise I don’t know if it’s hers or mine. There’s no time to assess the situation, though, because Ashley takes the opportunity to move her mouth to my neck. One of her hands is now supporting her as she runs her lips up and down the length of my neck and I instinctively move to let her. I feel her other hand at my waist, pulling my own shirt off my skin and sliding her hand under. I gasp at the twin sensations. When her hand reaches the uncovered curve of my breast at the same time as her teeth bite gently at the junction of my neck and shoulder, I moan.

This time, I definitely know it’s me.

I’m on fire. I have never felt like this in my entire life. For a second, it flashes through my head, the reality of what’s happening. I push it aside, aware that, if I think too much, this might stop and, if it stops, it might never happen again.

Her weight lifts off me as her mouth kisses its way back to mine. For long moments, we’re kissing, hard and fast, then it moves back to slow and sultry. My hand clenches on her back, nails scraping gently, and the other one tightens in her hair carefully. Our mouths break free again and I feel bereft. I feel even more so when she sits up but it’s mere seconds before she pulls me with her. I’m sitting now and she’s kneeling over me and her face is flushed.

Without stopping to speak, her hands find the hem of my tank top and lift it. I lift my arms, almost instinctively once again, and it’s over my head and gone in a second.

I’m topless. In front of Ashley. And she’s staring down at my chest.

I kinda like the look on her face.

Then she pulls her own top off and my eyes are no longer on her face, especially when she reaches behind her and unsnags her bra, then casually slips it off and throws it sideways.

Oh. Lord. Almighty.

I’m fairly sure that strangled noise comes out of my throat again before I’m being lowered to the bed again. Our skin is touching. Our breasts are touching. Her soft, warm weight is pushing me back into the bed and then there’s a knee between my legs.

I can’t help it: I push my body up off the bed into hers and pull her mouth back to mine.

I’m so hungry for her. Five years of aching and want, five years of imagination are all pouring out of me in one go. I know we’re going fast. This is not a slow, romantic coupling. This is pure animal lust. I’m fine with that. Ashley wants me: I can feel it in her movements, her kissing. This is turning her on.

That’s all I need.

Her mouth slips off mine again and she’s back to ravaging my throat. She ranges from my ear – super-senstive – down to my pulse and her hand skims up from my waist. Before I can gasp, it covers my left breast and I swear she can feel my heart pounding through the flesh.

My nipple instantly hardens and I twist under her, uncertain of how to deal with these feelings. All of these places have been touched before, but never have they felt like this. She palms my nipple, making sensations shoot out from beneath her hand. Her fingers find the bud and tweak, then soothe. All the while, her mouth is going crazy on me. It finds mine again and I kiss her, open-mouthed and panting.

“Fuck,” I hear her murmur against my lips. “Fuck.”

The knee that was pressing between my legs is now moving. It’s thrusting gently, creating a pressure that is neither relieving nor enough.

We roll and I push up, landing us sideways. For a moment, our mouths part and then we find each other again. For long minutes, it’s a tangle of hands, fingers, lips, tongues and legs, all moving together. I find her breast and, for the first time, hold it in my hand.

It’s incredible.

I bask in the sensations and the feel of her, hardening up against my hand, until she whimpers and her head falls back. Now it’s my turn to let my mouth wander, explore. I’m just starting to know her like a map, when her hand grabs my wrist and pulls it away from her.

I look up and I see her eyes are burning. Her skin is flushed and her lower lip is between her teeth.

Before I can make a sound, I’m thrown onto my back and she’s on top of me, only now her hand is holding my wrists above my head.

Oh, Jesus fucking Christ!

Our kiss, completely controlled by her, only lasts seconds. It’s hard and pressing and I want more. But her mouth leaves me and I pant. I want to beg her, but I don’t know what to beg her for. She lets my wrists go and I bring my hands down to touch her. Suddenly they’re back up above my head and her mouth is biting my neck.

I’m going to have hickeys. I’m going to have to explain said hickeys. I don’t care.

It’s clear she wants my hands up here. I grab the head of the bed and arch into her mouth. Her hands slide away from my wrists, one to hold her up and the other to skim down my side. Her head moves lower, kissing down across my shoulder and I know where’s she’s going.

I arch even further up, offering myself to her. I whimper.

She kisses across the swell of my breast until she reaches what was always her goal. She moves up on her knees, leaving her head bowed down and kissing around my nipple. Both her hands are at my sides now, cupping my rib cage as her mouth swallows me.

My head thrashes from side-to-side and one of my hands comes down to cup her head. I can’t help it: she’s driving me crazy. This time, she lets me. Her mouth moves to my other breast and I moan again. This is good. This is so good.

She shifts her hand, sliding it down to my trackpants and pushing them down. Suddenly, her body is up off mine again but her hands are at my hips, pulling down my pants. I lift my hips, mutely accepting her moves and then pull her head back to mine.

I don’t know how, but we’re now just in underwear. Our bodies are moving almost rhythmically and I’m losing all ability to think.

It’s all Ashley, everywhere, all the time. Her mouth on my stomach, her hand on my thigh. Everything becomes a cataclysmic blur, heading to the moment when she cups my centre through my panties and I cry out.

When her hand leaves, I whimper.

The blurs continue, warm heat, wet mouth, thrusting and touching. Our bodies are melding, moving together and I’m shaking with need. She’s pushing me into the mattress, her lithe form pressing rhythmically as her knee slides between my legs. She makes me want to beg. I want her to touch me everywhere. I want her naked and pressed into me. I want her to make me scream.

At the moment all she’s getting is gasps, moans and whimpers. My breath heavy in her ear as my lips tickle her. She wants me, I know, because she just told me so, gasping and hoarse as her body presses me down once again. Her knee is pushing right into me and it’s making me writhe against her.

She knows what she’s doing to me.

I feel her body move sideways slightly and I grasp at her, trying to keep her with me. Instead of pressing me into the bed, she’s now pressing into my side and her body is full-length against mine. My underwear has disappeared and I don’t know how. I’m naked in front of her. I don’t have time to be self conscious or even really think about it because her hand tangles in my hair and pulls our mouths together.

Her kissing makes me weak. Her tongue does things that no tongue should humanly do. Her hand is on my thigh. Her nails are scratching up the skin of my thigh while her tongue flicks across my lower lip. I break free, whimpering and pushing my naked body up against her. Her hand slides across. I’m momentarily distracted by her kiss that I don’t notice its trajectory.

I notice the instant her hand moves my leg aside, fast enough that she can slide down and cup me again before I can say or do anything. I’m wet and I only just realise it as, for the first time, I gasp her name.


It comes out as insistent and needy, and that’s exactly how my insides feel. Her fingers part me and find me slick and waiting. I feel more nervous than I’ve ever felt in my life but her moaned, “Oh, fuck!” against my neck makes my hand clench on her side and the other twist in the sheets.

The second she rubs across my clitoris, I think I’ll die. My body arches up as she moves across me again and again. Her mouth finds mine and her tongue matches the movements of her fingers. My body becomes a vibrating mass of need and want.

When she finally enters me, I think it really will kill me. She’s gentle, but her quiet thrusts make me gasp in time. Her thumb comes up and brushes across me. My knee draws up, pulling her closer to me. My hands grab her shoulders and my whole body comes up off the bed into her. As her tongue licks up my neck, her fingers push me over the edge and my cries are enough to echo across the whole room. I thrust my hips against her, the pleasure flowing across me in waves that feel like they’ll never end.

No-one has ever made me orgasm before. And it’s nothing like my own mild ministrations.

This is why people go crazy for sex.

This is why I’ve been dreaming about doing this with Ashley for years.

Oh God, is it ever worth it!

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Next up: Chapter 11 [X, NSFW]


  1. dev0347
    Posted 8 February 2010 at 1.14pm | Permalink

    Le gasp!

    **faints dead away**

  2. BG
    Posted 8 February 2010 at 2.19pm | Permalink

    Umm, WOW!

    I never expected the kiss to go this far, but wow you sure wrote this scene well. I am at a loss for words.

  3. Wicked1
    Posted 8 February 2010 at 2.27pm | Permalink

    WHOOOOAAA……*exhales*…..hahahahaha. Whoa! I was not expecting that, I was expecgting maybe a few kisses, not orgasms, hahaha. Man, that was fast, no overthinking or anything, just went with it. This leads me to belief that all the drama will come after the sex. I wonder if Ashley is gonna let Spencer reciprocate. Man, Ashley is smooooooth, hahaha, one minutes its “That tongue thing, let me show you”, to here, let me give you an orgasm. That was quite an update, and I figured you were gonna leave it there. Update again soon, PLEASE. I can’t wait to see what happens next. Great chapter.

  4. iocaste
    Posted 8 February 2010 at 4.08pm | Permalink

    mmmm delicious!!

  5. cosmic
    Posted 8 February 2010 at 5.38pm | Permalink

    Woot! Ashley definitely showed her something. And I think drama will ensue after this bliss?great update. Hot as

  6. peanut
    Posted 8 February 2010 at 5.55pm | Permalink

    See, this is how I like my English lessons! ^_^
    Very educational *takes notes*

    *picks dev up*

  7. Mel
    Posted 8 February 2010 at 7.09pm | Permalink

    humina humina





  8. Fishtosea
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 2.03am | Permalink

    Dear Lord……*blinks rapidly* Um, how did they go from one simple, well, tonuge kiss, to all the hotness that is called kissing and touching with Spencer’s innocent little blonde soul? At least she’s not innocent anymore…


  9. Fishtosea
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 2.04am | Permalink

    As Dev said upwards, El gasp!

  10. boxcargraffiti
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 3.54am | Permalink

    Hmmm…and you’ve been sitting on this chapter for how long? Begs the question of what else have you been sitting on?! Wait… don’t answer that!

  11. chelle5432
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 10.47am | Permalink

    CLOM! Oh my God!

    That’s just….

    I mean…

    Crap, I have no words….just…WOW!

  12. Posted 9 February 2010 at 12.21pm | Permalink

    WOW this chapter was so great ive got nothing more to say:-).hope the next chapter comes out pretty soon.clom n devs keep up the great stories.u both rock:-)hehe.

  13. whattheysay
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 3.11pm | Permalink

    never saw that one coming….literally. But I like the way this turned out. But I have a bad feeling that someone is going to freak out and there is drama nigh.

  14. BG
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 4.28pm | Permalink

    Ok, I have thought about this for a day now. No, not all the time, but it has definitely been on my mind! ;)

    I am still blown away by the writing and the fact that the kiss went from a little experiment to overcome with lust and the need to go all the way. Great, great, great turn of events and a turn that I did not see coming.

    I loved how take charge Ashley was in this chapter. Everything from initiating the kiss, to taking off each others clothes, to holding Spencers hands down. Loved it!

    We are in Spencers head, but yet I can absolutely feel what Ashley is feeling and visualize how overwhelmed with lust she is in the moment.

    Now, I realize that there will probably be drama ahead, but you definitely suprised me Clom. Nice job not sticking to a pattern in your writing and mixing things up.

    Posted 9 February 2010 at 6.03pm | Permalink

    This story just gets more amazing every chapter!

  16. peanut
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 6.13pm | Permalink

    I have thought about this for a day now, too.
    And my head comes up with the weirdest scenarios on how this could turn out …
    Mostly because we don’t know much about Ashley yet, there were two things that just popped into my head on what she could say after what happened (and what no one would want to read, I know).
    First there was: “Hmmm … That was nice, we should ask Aid to join us next time!”
    Second was: “Wow! This was way better than when I did it with Madison, last week!”
    Don’t ask me why I think of stuff like that, I have no idea …

    The most likeliest things to happen are of course the freak out, the talk or my favorite: Spence jumps Ashley and expresses all her feelings verbally as well as physically.

    But I hope the next chapter will be as surprising as this one was!

  17. Lindsey
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 9.52pm | Permalink

    Well, you can count me in on the list of people that didn’t see that coming. Well, not before seeing the warning at least. And even then, I was thinking it might be a joke! But wow.

    So, I’m not quite sure how I feel about this turn of events, mostly because I don’t trust Ashley not to be a total douche after this and break Spencer’s heart even further. I’m thinking either Ashley will pretend this never happened and Spencer will go along with it (breaking her heart), or she’ll suggest friends with benefits, and Spencer will go along with it (breaking her heart). Either way, I’m predicting Spencer not being able to handle the torture for too long, and she’ll explode all over Ashley. That sounded dirty.

  18. c
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 10.05pm | Permalink

    Clom, I’ve been reading your stuff forever, and this is by far the hottest sex scene you’ve ever written.

    And my wife is at work for at least two more hours. Grrrr.

  19. Lee
    Posted 9 February 2010 at 10.34pm | Permalink

    I’m a long time lurker and reader and this time I just couldn’t resist replying to this story. Hot…Oh my….Very Hot…Now I’m concerned for Spencer’s fragile mind.
    And to peanut…I loved those possible “after sex comments” of Ashley’s!

  20. Vulcan
    Posted 10 February 2010 at 12.04am | Permalink

    Is no one concerned in the slightest that Ashley just cheated on someone? That’s not cool no matter who it is.

    Good update either way, though. xD

  21. DaniZGE
    Posted 10 February 2010 at 1.14am | Permalink

    I think that this has to be the best love scene… Ever. A beautiful job.

  22. tee452
    Posted 10 February 2010 at 5.58am | Permalink

    Up close to the beginning, Spence says that it isn’t romantic, that it is lustful and they are going fast. The chapter reads that way too. The tendency toward shorter sentences and the play-by-play focusing on action instead of connection make their urgent carnality come through so perfectly.

    Spencer grabbing the head of the bed and arching? Too. Hot.

    *high 5’s Vulcan* I agree. Even though I usually want to punch Aiden in his annoying face, I think two or three people are in for a world of hurt.

    Clom, you are going to outdo yourself with this one, I reckon. Thanks.

  23. Calgirl
    Posted 10 February 2010 at 6.03am | Permalink

    Jesus that was good. I love the comparison between Spencer’s first time with Daniel and her first time with Ashley. Daniel was loving and sweet what is supposed to be what a sweet innocent girl wants sex to be like. With Ashley it was an intense passionate fucking. Its like on every level Daniel represents everything she should want and Ashley is everything she does want. Right down to the sex.

    I don’t know what is going to happen next. I know I am hoping for a hot and cold confusing Ashley. And more hot secret sex. But I don’t know. I do know I will love whatever it is. And I know that Spencer might change her mind about it being “worth it”… at least for a little while.

    And however Ashley plays this after, even if she pretends it meant nothing, there is no denying that this was the explosion of a lot of pent up want and need for her as much as Spencer. No denying that this wasn’t an experiment or just something to try out. Because she was crazy into it.

  24. sharon
    Posted 10 February 2010 at 7.34am | Permalink

    f-ing amazing is all i can say right now…. thank goodness i didnt see this update during work earlier… because i know that even with the warning i would have had to read it, and i wouldnt be able to take a cold shower afterwards…

    i also have read so much of your stuff for years now and it just keeps getting better. this is one of the hottest scenes ive read… and i have no clue what will happen next. im sure that no matter what happens it will be written superbly… and it will be worth the wait.

  25. DaniZGE
    Posted 10 February 2010 at 6.48pm | Permalink

    I know I have already posted a comment. I love your work. All of it. Every story whether its finished or not, I love it. and this chapter… DAMN. I admit I have read it more than once. And more than twice. Thank you for making your work public.

  26. Lindsey
    Posted 10 February 2010 at 10.59pm | Permalink

    [i]Is no one concerned in the slightest that Ashley just cheated on someone? That’s not cool no matter who it is.[/i]

    Not in the slightest. One, it’s Aiden. Two, they have an on again/off again when it’s convenient kinda thing, I’m sure it’s not the first time she’s cheated on him, and I’m sure he’s done the same to her.

  27. Vulcan
    Posted 10 February 2010 at 11.04pm | Permalink

    Your morals scare me a little, Lindsey.

  28. Fishtosea
    Posted 10 February 2010 at 11.39pm | Permalink

    Lindsey, everyone knows cheating is wrong, but everyone also knows that Aiden is just Ashley’s little security blanket most of the time and Ashley really just dates him to date hime. It’s not like she has any real feelings for him, RIGHT Clommy?

  29. Lindsey
    Posted 11 February 2010 at 12.37am | Permalink

    Vulcan, it’s a fanfiction about fictional characters. In real life, obviously any kind of cheating is wrong, but I’m not about to care too much about poor Aiden getting his feelings hurt in a fic.

  30. Vulcan
    Posted 11 February 2010 at 5.17am | Permalink

    The way I see it, if Ashley’s willing to cheat on Aiden she’d be willing to cheat on Spencer too. If you’re a cheater, you’re a cheater. No matter who you’re with.

    And if Ashley turns around after this and stays with Aiden, will you be pissed at her then?

  31. peanut
    Posted 11 February 2010 at 10.09am | Permalink

    If you’re a cheater, you’re a cheater. No matter who you’re with.
    Sorry to interrupt, but that’s not true.

    … Yeah, that’s all I have to say ^_^

  32. cosmic
    Posted 11 February 2010 at 10.38am | Permalink

    Alright could it be possible that she had already broken up with Aiden during this span of time?After all Spencer had been sorta out of it lately. There were a lot of blank moments that she was not aware off that could have fueled this intense passion on Ashley.

  33. Lindsey
    Posted 11 February 2010 at 11.30am | Permalink

    I agree, if you cheat on one person, it doesn’t mean you’ll cheat on anyone. There’s a huge difference between how you act with someone you don’t love, and someone you do.

    And yeah, I would be pissed. You know why? Because this fic is in Spencer’s POV. I sympathize with Spencer. Spencer doesn’t like Aiden (I don’t like Aiden in the first place, so that just fuels the fire), she most likely might feel a bit guilty later, if he and Ashley were even still together, but other than that … Aiden is hardly even a character in this, and when he is around, he’s acting like a douche, so, again, not really caring about her cheating on him.

  34. allofmyidolsrdead
    Posted 11 February 2010 at 8.35pm | Permalink

    I am curious to Ashley’s hinted experience with girls because Spencer doesnt seem to have any inkling that Ashley has been with anyone but Aiden, yet Ashley has mentioned she has kissed
    “a lot” of people. It seems like maybe Ashley has been hiding things from Miss Spencer, like Spencer has been hiding things from Ashley.

    I honestly can never pinpoint where a story by you where go.. the natural or should I say normal route would be a freak out by one or both parties. However, you never know with you.. so i am not speculating. I would LOVE to see Spencer put it down on Ashley and release all her built up pent up sexual frustrations and leave Ashley all “wow” but most write Spencer so innoncent and inexperienced. I bet all her daydreaming about Ashley having the real thing she might teach her a thing or two. LOL
    Great story your writing is perfect!

  35. ttfpp
    Posted 13 February 2010 at 3.20am | Permalink

    Wow! I don’t want to speculate what is next. Just wanted to say how much I enjoy this story, and your writing in general. Perhaps soon when you are done with this fic you might indulge us with a update on Coming Up For Air? Just thought I’d throw that out there.

  36. somthngIlike2do
    Posted 13 February 2010 at 8.15am | Permalink

    Yes I read it twice and was glad Ashley gave into her feelings. She tends to get jealous when Spencer is with someone or shows interest in someone. By the useage of Fuck by Ashley it showed the depth of feelings and emotion she has for her best friend. Now next chapter I’m really want Spencer to get her chance to explore Ashley. She started to and Ashley really liked it but she made it about Spencer. I wonder why????

  37. spikkels8
    Posted 19 February 2010 at 2.20pm | Permalink

    *mouth hangs open*

    *mouth still open. Clears throat.*

    I think I’m with Spence on this one…


  38. yeahbutno
    Posted 14 March 2010 at 10.22am | Permalink

    She knows what she’s doing to me.

    Yes, yes, she really seems to.

    At first I was wondering if this was a Dallas-like-dream-sequence but then thought that Clom would never be so cruel.

    I’m kind of in two minds right now because if she has been shagging around with other girls whilst Spence has been distracted with thingie *winks* I will be annoyed BUT we are only seeing one side of the story, so far.

    AS for the cheating thing in the comments….come on. Leave it to the author, personally I don’t give a shit at Aiden as Spence and Ash are meant to be, just as long as they aren’t bitches about it.

  39. imaferrari
    Posted 20 April 2011 at 2.23am | Permalink

    Oh my God. That’s one of the hottest first-time sex scenes I’ve ever read. And I’ve read a lot. Damn, the anticipation just grew exponentially with every kiss, touch, clothing removal…and they were both so into it. Just WOW. Obviously, Ashley almost slipped referencing kissing girls, but I wonder what else she’s done. And how long she’s been wanting to do that to/with Spencer.

    Moving on…

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